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The Dark Side
00:57
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Instrumental
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Wasting Away
02:33
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Another day of looking back, My heart skips another beat
Another night of feeling empty, finding it hard to breathe
Don't waste away, don't lose today
Slipping away, nothing left to say
Another sound that takes me there, the tears drown out my eyes
Another photo of times we lost with loved ones and friends that died
Don't waste away, don't lose today
Slipping away, nothing left to say
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3. |
Everwood
03:28
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I don't want to have to write this song again but here I am
There are no melodies, no words that can describe how I feel inside
It's not right that you're not here, It's not fair that you're not near
My brain is numb and I'm a mess, complete wreck, I'm motherless
I don't wanna have to do this anymore, I just want to call you but someone else answers
I just want to feel good once again but don't know if I can, there are no words
It's not right that you're not here, It's not fair that you're not near
My brain is numb and I'm a mess, complete wreck, I'm motherless
I look up to the stars and wonder which one is you, mom I feel so lost and I don't know what to do
Your birthday is this month, we'll send a balloon your way
The holidays are coming and they won't feel the same
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4. |
Grimm Reaper
02:50
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You're gone but I still feel you here
You're the demon yelling in my ear
You're the whispers bleeding in my head
You're the monster in my closet and underneath my bed
You're everything I fear, the cause of all my tears
The Lycanthrope I know, I may never let this go
My blood is poisoned by you, suffocate me til my face turns blue
You're the killer that's hunting me, pull your knife out and watch me bleed
You're everything I fear, the cause of all my tears
The Lycanthrope I know, I may never let this go
I see your face and I feel the pain from down inside
I can't forget you no matter how I try
You're like a disease that's with me to stay, an infection that won't go away, I run away but I could never hide, no matter where I go it's you I always find
You're everything I fear, the cause of all my tears
The Lycanthrope I know, I may never let this go
I may never let you go
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Imminent
03:02
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The night is dark outside, in this room there is no light
Confined to this bed I hide and you, you cry
Do my best to smile, give you hope for awhile
But soon the truth will come and I, I'll be done
Please don't be sad anymore, please don't worry anymore
Our nightmare has come true, please know that I'm with you
My body is giving up and it, it's had enough
Slipping away say goodbye as your eyes begin to cry
Hold onto me like you do and I, I love you
Please don't be sad anymore, please don't worry anymore
Even though my life is through, I'll always be here with you
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6. |
Chapters
02:35
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He's sitting there staring at the wall, eyes have a blank stare, he's hoping someone calls
His headache pounds and his body burns, mind plays many sounds as the voices take their turns
He's holding on but for how long?
He asks himself where he went wrong
He gave up and lost it all, now he's alone to take his final fall
Reflecting he thinks back on his life, so many good things, a beautiful wife
It came crashing down, he made his mistakes, his love left him now, happiness hit brakes
His anxiety takes hold
His depression takes its toll
His final chapter has been told, the voice in his head says it's time to go
He died alone
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7. |
January 19th
03:38
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Tonight my heart is in a mess, I've been let down, my head still pounds
Tonight I'm facing a new world, I'm not prepared, I'm feeling scared
I'm not okay, Life's not the same, it's just pain, it won't go away
I'm not alright, I lost a part of me that night, it's just too hard to survive
Today I'm running on no sleep and I can't deal, last night was real
Today I'm forgetting to breathe, my body is numb, my mind is done
I'm not okay, Life's not the same, it's just pain, it won't go away
I'm not alright, I lost a part of me that night, it's just too hard to survive
Without you mom
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8. |
Loser
03:12
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Everybody had fun, had someone to go to dances with except for me
I wasn't that lucky, I just sat in the corner alone, watching, waiting, wondering, wasting my time away
Everyone was happy, I should have stayed home, why couldn't I be like them?
Today I'm still the same, just older and more lame, nothing to show for, and soon I'll be gone
And he, he had his girlfriend, saw them kiss again I turned away
To hide tears of envy, why couldn't that be me?
I turn the corner and she was there and I tried not to stare
At her and her high school sweetheart, why is life unfair?
And he, he had his girlfriend, saw them kiss again I turned away
To hide tears of envy, why couldn't that be me?
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9. |
Lenox Ave
03:40
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Maybe it is just a street but it means so much more to me
Many memories spent in that place growing up at 4319
It's just one more thing that feels so far away
The nostalgia from yesterdays
Reminisce and wish we could go back but that is a dream that we can't have, those days I miss but lets make the best of this, always remember
Maybe it's just a spot on the map but that's where I lived with my mom and my dad
Growing up behind those walls, becoming strong and learning flaws
It's just one more thing that feels so far away
The nostalgia from yesterdays
Reminisce and wish we could go back but that is a dream that we can't have, those days I miss but lets make the best of this, always remember
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10. |
Growing Up Sucks
02:57
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The simple things in life aren't simple anymore, nothing is like before
And all my hopes and dreams disappeared long ago, why this happens I don't know
Maybe I should try harder to make my dreams come true
But I'm not a complete failure because I found you
The hardest things in life seem to be familiar, way too familiar
And it's so hard to smile but easy to frown, sadness is a silent sound
Maybe I should just give up, that seems to easy to do
But I must have done something right because I found you
Maybe I should try harder to make my dreams come true
But I'm not a complete failure because I found you
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11. |
The Evil Inside
02:57
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The veins inside my skin are filled with blood polluted with sin
Corrupted with temptation making my weak mind fail again
I can't think straight, I can't see straight, clouding my sight, I don't feel right
Trouble breathing, mind is seething, questioning why there is evil inside
We all have a beast we battle inside in our flesh where evil resides
The thoughts inside my head are dark and consumed with dread
Worst case scenario, catastrophizing bad outcomes ending up in me head
I can't take this, I can't fake this, nothing changes just rearranges
Feeling anxious, hit and a miss, I'm always pissed, high on the devils list
We all have a beast we battle inside in our flesh where evil resides
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Paranoid
02:45
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I'm sitting in this room filled with darkness and I can see the demons
My mind keeps playing tricks on me, am I going crazy?
I've had enough of these mind games, just let it go, just let me be
I've had enough, I feel insane, just leave me alone, just leave me be
I'm walking this path with eyes watching me and I can feel them judging
Their fingers are pointing as their eyes stare telling me I'm failing
I've had enough of these mind games, just let it go, just let me be
I've had enough, I feel insane, just leave me alone, just leave me be
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13. |
Fiction
02:33
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The first time you came over and we watched movies
I was so nervous, sitting anxiously
My mouth was all dried out, I couldn't speak, I just wanted you to fall in love with me
Your perfume scented my pillow until the next day
I called you but you had nothing to say except for I think you are nice but let's just be friends
When you think it's going good it suddenly ends
So alone it's raining outside and in my mind, I can't count how many times I have cried
I'm alone why do I even try? All of these emotions tear me up inside
You tear me up on the inside
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14. |
Wake Up With Regret
03:06
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Wake up - alarm is screaming
Get up - brain is scheming
Stand up - to get moving
I already hate today
Get dressed - my body hates me
Get pissed - don't want to be
Like this - it's depressing
I hate myself again
I didn't ask for this, feels like I am cursed and there is no fixing this
Where did I go wrong? I hate this
Again - mind blanked out
I am - filled with doubt
Failure - I scream out loud
Why did I do this to myself?
Nothing - seems to helps me
I'll keep - keep on failing
Give up - I hate being in this body get me out
I didn't ask for this, feels like I am cursed and there is no fixing this
Where did I go wrong? I hate this
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15. |
Metaphor
02:29
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I'm fighting this demon that fits snug into my head, the grown up version of the monster under my bed
It's eating my brain driving me insane, I don't feel the same
Whoa oh I can't identify, Whoa oh even though I try
And this thing needs to die so I can live my life
The creature sits inside while controlling my mind making me do things I shouldn't, I don't feel fine
It's destroying me, it won't let me be, I just want to be free
Whoa oh I can't identify, Whoa oh even though I try
And this thing needs to die so I can live my life
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Zoey wants to be a Ramone
She sits in her room wanting to be sedated
She's a punk rock queen and she could never fake it
Rockaway beach, she wishes she could go there
And do the Cretin Hop while blaring I don't care
Zoey wants to be a Ramone
All her friend are more into the metal
But she's always though punk rock was so much better
Three chords and a simple whoa oh oh
You can see her Friday night at the punk rock show
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My Realization
02:30
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Waking up this morning my heart was broken, I couldn't find the words to explain but I knew that I have lost my way and this world has left me stranded and without you I'm not okay
I thought I need it all, all I need is you
I thought I'd want it all, all I want is you
I will not lie sometimes I stray, sometimes I forget to pray, sometimes I turn my head and walk away
But even in my weakest times I know you're right there by my side, I couldn't hide from you even if I tried
I thought I need it all, all I need is you
I thought I'd want it all, all I want is you
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Grand Slam
02:18
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In your voice I hear hope, in your eyes I find strength to help me carry on to another day
It's because of you I'm so happy, I found the reasons for me and it is you
My life will never be the same because of you
I used to feel so sad but stepped to the plate and swung for the stars
I hit a grand slam, maybe a million when you took my heart and you gave me yours in return and now I know I'm so in love with you
Your laughter eases pain, your smile keeps one on me when it seems impossible to keep on smiling
It's because of you I want to wake up, I found the missing pieces and you are it, my life will never be the same because of you
I used to feel so sad but stepped to the plate and swung for the stars
I hit a grand slam, maybe a million when you took my heart and you gave me yours in return and now I know I'm so in love with you
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Why Should I Anyway?
01:28
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I don't wanna think about you anymore, it just wastes my time
I don't wanna see you anymore, it just plays with my heart and my mind
Why did you lead me on? I guess I was wrong about you, where did I go wrong, I guess I never had a clue so don't ever call here, it's not like I care, why should I anyway?
I don't wanna be a part of all the stupid games you want to play
Just leave me alone I don't want to hear your voice, go away
Today don't talk to me cuz I have nothing to say, if you try to call me I hope that I'm not home because I'm better off alone
Why did you lead me on? I guess I was wrong about you, where did I go wrong, I guess I never had a clue so don't ever call here, it's not like I care, why should I anyway?
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20. |
Anything And Everything
03:05
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There comes a point in all our lives when we have to open up our eyes
And we start to realize someday we're going to die
So lets make the best of everything, I want to be the best for you
And all I want is for you to love me, I'm scared to death you'll say we're through, don't say we're through
There comes a time when people think they have to give up
But we can choose to stay strong and anything can work out as long as you both want
So lets make the best of everything, I want to be the best for you
And all I want is for you to love me, I'm scared to death you'll say we're through, don't say we're through
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I was nobody until I found you
I was lost, alone and confused
My lonely heart was waiting for you
I'm nothing without you
I need you
Your eyes are so warm, your smile is the cure and I love you and that's for sure
We're meant to be, you are for me and I'm for you cuz you love me too
You fill my heart, you fill my mind, you're in my thoughts all the time
And I won't leave, I'll always stay with you forever and a day
I'm nothing without you
I need you
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22. |
The Dark Side Part II
00:41
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Instrumental
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